The Universe is looking out for you.

Whenever you feel down, whenever you’re in doubt. Whenever you feel like nothing is working out… Just breathe, believe and ask or pray if that’s what you want to call it. Pray to the Universe, ask for things… Tell it what you want. You will get it. If you believe it, you’ll have it. It’s not that complicated. Everything is pretty easy, if you make it easy.

Whatever you want, you will get.
Don’t doubt yourself so much.
Believe.
Believe in yourself.
Love yourself.

Notice.
Notice how everything always works out for you in the end.
Notice how people are always around you.
You are a magnet.
You attract people.
People want to talk to you.
They want to get in contact with you.
They want your attention.
Notice.
Embrace it.
Embrace your soul, embrace the person you are.

Fall in love with yourself.

She didn’t send you there without reason.

She sent you because she believed in him. She sent you because she believed in you.
It was as if a part of her from either the past or future, believed in you.

She knew what was hidden in you, whether it would come out in five, ten or twenty years, she knew what was there. She believed in you.
From time to time she doubted you, but once she let go of her own selfishness… She came to realize, she still believed that the man she loved whom did not yet exist, was within this body which held a face she loved so dearly. A face that didn’t impress her by the first sight, but a face that grew on her.
The smell of his body never turned her on either, until it became a scent that belonged to the past, to a memory, a period… She came to love every bit of him and yet not. What was love even? Did she ever really truly love him? No. She loved the thought of loving him… However she truly did care for him… But time is what it takes… And now she didn’t really care. Or did she? Why him?
There was something in the Universe, which she could only feel once they were apart.
Although she had her closure, she had a feeling that this was still – once again, not the end of things…

She didn’t want to focus much on what the Universe had planned in terms of him – and her, no – there were more important things to focus on.

She wanted to think of herself the way she thought of her soulmate. Why couldn’t she praise herself the same way?
She needed to understand, that just like you love every bit of your partner – you need to do the same with yourself… She needed to start telling herself: I love the texture of your hair and the smoothness of your skin.I love your eyes. I love your body. I love every inch of you…

Loving herself was yet one of her biggest challenges.

She believed in so many people, yet not herself.
She loved and cared for so many, yet not herself.

She realized it was time to stop and send all this energy towards herself.
She believed in him, when in the end she should just believe in herself.
She loved his face, when in the end she should love her own.
She loved his embrace, when in the end she should love her own company.

She realized that it was time to fall in love with herself.

 

Do you know why you’re high sometimes?

Do you ever think back sometimes and think ‘wow I was so happy at that time, everything was working out. Everything was great.’?

Well I do.

However I’ve noticed, the only thing that actually differs from then and now is the matter of fact that… You’ve chosen not to be happy. I know it sounds weird – but its true.

It’s all a matter of perspective… Things are as great as you want them to be, they are as great as you see them. You are as happy as you want to be, you really decide yourself how you feel… And you decide where you put the emphasis – on the negative or positive?

Just do whatever makes you happy. If you need alone time, do that. If you need to socialize do that… But always remember to think: ‘why do I need this?’ or ‘what will this give me?’ or ‘do I want to do this because I really want to, or is it rooted in something else?’.

It’s important to be self-aware and take care of yourself.

Get high from everything in life.

The night sky, the cloud-free sky in the day, the rays of sunshine, the luxury of having water access whenever you need it, the matter of fact that you can just turn on the water and take a shower, that you can walk, see, smell … Taste. Think about where your food came from, how it was made possible for you to eat it…
In reality everything in life and our daily life is truly amazing, we just don’t realize it. We forget… We don’t appreciate it enough…

Don’t worry – I am a sinner too.
However I try to remind myself as often as possible, that no matter what, I am truly blessed. And no matter what I am as happy as I want to be. As independent or dependent as I choose to be.
Everything is a choice, although it doesn’t always seem like it, everything in life is rooted in choice.

If it scares you, face it.

Easier said than done – I know.

BUT… If we constantly hold ourselves back because we’re scared… Will we ever make it?

I don’t think I’ve ever taken a chance or decision and been disappointed, I’ve always walked away with something.

Follow your heart, follow your gut feeling – don’t let your fear be the decision maker.

I’m scared. I wont lie. Of course I am.

I’ve been a student my whole life, even though I thought of myself as independent I now realize, being a student makes you everything but. I am scared of having to put myself in a position now and say ‘here I am and I am qualified for this, this and this.’.
Scared. Fear. No, that’s not right…

What am I missing? Confidence. Visions. Self-belief.
I do possess all of this – however none of these are as clear as they should be or 100%, and THAT is WHY I am scared. Why else?

I have decided that I now want to sell myself – however I feel like I have nothing to sell. Damn right I am scared. Damn right I am nervous. What else? I’ve never done this before… Which is all the more reason why I should try… If I fail, so what? Failure is not bad, failure makes you wiser and smarter. You can never lose, because there is always a gain in every decision – whether it is positive or negative. In reality all incidents are positive, because it’s a matter of perspective. They may hurt, but the fact that they happened, that aspect is positive. We don’t grow if we don’t learn and we don’t learn if we don’t fall from time to time.

But I am scared. I’m not going to backdown however, but I need a plan. I can’t ‘just do it’, not this time. I feel that all this planning is what’s making me anxious, but then again… I am looking for a specific outcome – I can’t get this outcome if I don’t plan. I have to prep my mindset too.

I need to declutter my mind. I’ve been trying to, but not hard enough. I have to eliminate all distractions as much as possible. Me. I need to focus on me, and I need to define how I do that…

Not sure how I feel.

I’m not sure how I feel anymore – about anything to be honest.

I don’t feel educated, qualified or able to do anything. I can’t believe I’ll be coming out with a very high degree soon, and yet, I don’t feel like I can own that title…
Why? I mean, I feel stupid to be honest. I feel like I can’t actually perform the types of jobs that I am supposedly qualified for… I don’t feel like I have enough experience and I don’t know what to do…

I feel lost.

I feel like I want to run away.

I want to run.

Run.

Run to somewhere far away.

Although that used to be something that excited me, it’s now something that scares me.

I think for the first time ever, I’m scared. Like generally nervous. I feel like a chapter in my life is about to end, and I’m not sure I’m ready.

I need myself.

I don’t want a lover.
I don’t need you as a friend.
I don’t know what I need you as.
I just know, I don’t want to lose you.
I know that it’s best for you to not be here.
I don’t need the confusion you’re bringing along.
I can’t deal with you and your behaviors, it’s not my job.
So I’d rather just set you off into a boat, and wave goodbye to you.
Whilst I wave I know that something better is awaiting me on the other side.
I just need to pack my bag with the right things before I start my journey to the other side.
I know that when I get there, everything will work out for the better.
Every step of my journey so far and to come will be worth it.
When I get there everything and step will make sense.
I need clarity, peace, spirituality and self-love.
I don’t want to lose myself for anyone.
I need to be there for myself first.
I need to be my own friend.
I need to be my own fan.
I need myself.

 

Remember, to remember.

You can’t force things.
You can’t force it. So stop trying to.

Just accept that.
Accept it and move on.

Think about what it is that is really bothering you,
and put yourself first.
Do you!

Do you.
You come first.

It’s not about anyone else but yourself.
You, you, you.

Tomorrow, sit your ass down, think.
Remember.
Reminisce.
Set goals.
Daily.
Short term.
Long term.

Give your life purpose and meaning.
Give your everyday a purpose.

What do you want?
WHAT DO YOU WANT?

You don’t truly know, do you?
“I want a good life.”

Don’t we all?
But if you don’t define it, you can’t visualize it,
if you can’t do that – you can’t make it happen.

So remember, to remember.