I’m on the verge of crying every moment.
I have tears in my eyes from the moment they open, till I close them again.
I don’t think my level of anxiety has ever been as bad as it is now.
I feel like I am on the edge…
I question my existence, my path in life, everything.
I’m not sure about anything anymore.
I know it’s the anxiety speaking.
I’m fighting, I don’t want to spiral…
But my anxiety has a grip on my heart and mind.
I’m suffocating. I am smothering myself.
For what? I wan’t to say: I quit. And be over with it. But, then what?
Then I have wasted 2,5 years? All because I couldn’t pull it together… No.
I can’t … It would be foolish.
I want to. I sure as hell want to say F*** it.
But I have to stay focused and remember why I am here today at the road that I am.
I need to see this through…
Dear anxiety,
Please let me finish this chapter of my life. It’s been going on for too long already.